|Deviant Login||Shop||Join deviantART for FREE||Take the Tour|
Alise in WonderlandI'm one of those people, who's always lonely.
I wish I had someone, with whom I could share my loneliness, but it's too much to be asked.
I lie on the floor, and enjoy it's coldness. It's uncomfortable, but I'm fine with it.
I close my eyes, and hide into my little wonderland. It's amazing, how strong my imagination can be. It takes only few seconds for me to turn into whole different person, with whole new opportunities and life.
I decide to be one of my favorite characters - girl named Agneta, who has a forest spirit named Murmulis as her companion. He can turn into everything, but mostly I ask him to turn into wings, so that I could fly.
Have you ever felt, how it is, to fly with your own wings? Like a bird?
Even though I'm just a normal person, I can say, that I know how it feels. My imagination is so strong, that I can feel those wings. How much they weighs, and how hard it is to move them,or how big they are.
I can stay in my wonderland for hours. Even for days or weeks. It doesn
Fruit break"What do you think, What is love?" I ask Orange in front of me.
"You don't know?" another orange rolls to me and gives me surprised look.
"I don't know. I don't think that I have ever felt a real love"
"It's when your heart goes wild in your chest, when you think about him" the same orange answers in singing voice.
"I don't think that it's love" says one grumpy tangerine.
"I know that love can make your heart feel bitter," silent, feminine voice comes from under the table.
I take a look, and see a lemon. I pick it up, and put it between grumpy tangerine and silent orange.
"Why do you ask?" one red apple rolls my way, and stops right next to the romantic orange.
"I'm just curious." I look into my linden blossom tea cup. I won't tell them about my crushes. I won't tell them that I just don't want to mix crush with a love. I won't embarrass myself in front of them even more. They are fruits! If I will humiliate myself in front, I won't forgive myself.
"Well, in that case, I t
Like a moth into a flameI hate it when I'm alone.
Because then no one's beside me, and I can't keep my act. I can't stay the same dumb-ish looking nerd, who can play total circus, but still beat everyone on the tests. I can't put my funny face and make fun of my inner feelings and embarrass myself. I can't put my other - a pokerface, which reveals not a slightest bit of my feelings. I can't keep it in, when no one's around.
So I lock my door and lie on my bed or bath, or floor and start to think about you. How my heart was racing, when you laughed about the math exercise with me at the math club. How I blushed, when I was secretly watching you at the gymnastics, when you had to practice basketball, while I was just sitting on the bench right next to my three friends, and sulked about Renate (Your overly boyish classmate) who almost knocked me out doing slam-dunk while I was only picking up basketball. How jealous I was, when at the Christmas ball you were sent from your class as the representative, and danced
What happened at the libraryI hate it when, I fall in love. It always happens at the wrong moment. And with the wrong person.
It has been a month since school has started. We have a newbie in our class. He's pretty funny, he even has got a nickname - seal, because of his grey hoodie. He was one of the rare, who wasn't scared to talk with me. You know - the psyho girl, who sees things, and has to drink pills...
I fell for him about two weeks ago, when we had to work in groups, and make a presentation about myths of different cultures. I can't tell exact moment, when it happened, but I know that it was the moment, when I realised that.
But there's one thing which disturbs me.
His "pet" is a real seal, which swims in the air around him. Every time, he's talking with someone, seal always starts to swim around that person, like it would trying to intimidate that person.
Dog also says, that I shouldn't try to get too close to him. He gives him a bad feeling.
My thoughts were disrupted at that one moment.
I was sitting
Keep in Touch!
Lilyas has dedicated herself to making our community a brighter place with her vibrant artwork and infectious enthusiasm for interacting with others in our community. It has certainly paid off, as many deviants flock to her page on a daily basis to let her know how much of an inspiration she is. We absolutely agree, and couldn't let all that hard work go without recognition, so it's with great pride that we bestow the Deviousness Award for March 2014, to ... Read More